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Thursday
Evening, around 7. 30 p.m


     Today I heard something shock from my friend a.k.a my room mate. She say, she know I luv this guy in my class and there is another girl who also know about my luv interest. I was shock because I thought only my friend know about this but it seem I was wrong. She say, both of them did talk about what I feel for this boy and now it really annoying me...

     Seriously, I should be more careful with my action since there already two person know How I Feel For This Boy. But, it still confused me now because I really don't understand whether what I feel for this boy is luv or just like. There has be many time I try to deny what I feel for every guy I fall to and everytime I success. However there is this guy that I luv so much but it only luv one side...sad right?

     And now, same thing is happen again I fall to this boy who same age like me and almost have same chemistry. But I will not tell the truth because it hurt when be rejected and I don't want it, it fine with only see him from far away. There is many lack inside me and I don't want anybody know about them. I don't care if people say I always alone but it fine coz it's will be me who's hurt not them.

     Being hurt is something I'm scare and there is pride.... I have made my decision that I will not fell in luv until I finish my study. And if, my fate say I will be single I will accept but if it say I will have someone I will be grateful to God for send him to me. But right now I will just wait until that time is come and protect my heart from hurt also enjoy my life as single.

     I pray, one day there will be a man who can accept me and my lack. And for my friend, I will try be more careful  around them when the boy is there since there is eyes who's watching every move  I made. Actually, there is many dream that I want to come true it it will take a lot of my time and freedom. But, it ok because it worthy so boys... will have to wait along time before we become an item...^-^
WHO SAY I CAN'T BE SUPERMAN??? AND I SAY "I CAN!!!"