Sad story.....

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

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Thursday
Evening, around 7. 30 p.m


     Today I heard something shock from my friend a.k.a my room mate. She say, she know I luv this guy in my class and there is another girl who also know about my luv interest. I was shock because I thought only my friend know about this but it seem I was wrong. She say, both of them did talk about what I feel for this boy and now it really annoying me...

     Seriously, I should be more careful with my action since there already two person know How I Feel For This Boy. But, it still confused me now because I really don't understand whether what I feel for this boy is luv or just like. There has be many time I try to deny what I feel for every guy I fall to and everytime I success. However there is this guy that I luv so much but it only luv one side...sad right?

     And now, same thing is happen again I fall to this boy who same age like me and almost have same chemistry. But I will not tell the truth because it hurt when be rejected and I don't want it, it fine with only see him from far away. There is many lack inside me and I don't want anybody know about them. I don't care if people say I always alone but it fine coz it's will be me who's hurt not them.

     Being hurt is something I'm scare and there is pride.... I have made my decision that I will not fell in luv until I finish my study. And if, my fate say I will be single I will accept but if it say I will have someone I will be grateful to God for send him to me. But right now I will just wait until that time is come and protect my heart from hurt also enjoy my life as single.

     I pray, one day there will be a man who can accept me and my lack. And for my friend, I will try be more careful  around them when the boy is there since there is eyes who's watching every move  I made. Actually, there is many dream that I want to come true it it will take a lot of my time and freedom. But, it ok because it worthy so boys... will have to wait along time before we become an item...^-^
WHO SAY I CAN'T BE SUPERMAN??? AND I SAY "I CAN!!!"